My father's 62nd birthday would have been tomorrow, March 7th. He passed away last March (2 weeks after his 61st birthday). This is his first birthday without him. It is resurfacing so many emotions for me right now!
All of the "firsts" have been difficult and it concludes with his birthday this month and the anniversary of his passing on 3/25.
I will never understand why g-d took him from us so young w/out much warning. We were all at his bedside (in the hospital) when he passed. How mamy people can say that? It helped give me some peace and acceptance but it still hurts.
I function as best as I can and lead a normal life as i know that's how my father would want it. There's just that small piece of my life and heart that died right along with him.
One year later, i will hold my head up high..honor my father on his birthday, release a balloon towards heaven and continue to stay strong for my family, myself and most importantly for the miracle that continues to grow inside of me that will be my fathers first grandchild and name sake August of this year! That was the one gift I wasn't able to give him while he was here on earth, the one i wanted to give him so very much but the one that i know he will protect forever!!! Happy Birthday Pa!!! I love you always and forever!
All of the "firsts" have been difficult and it concludes with his birthday this month and the anniversary of his passing on 3/25.
I will never understand why g-d took him from us so young w/out much warning. We were all at his bedside (in the hospital) when he passed. How mamy people can say that? It helped give me some peace and acceptance but it still hurts.
I function as best as I can and lead a normal life as i know that's how my father would want it. There's just that small piece of my life and heart that died right along with him.
One year later, i will hold my head up high..honor my father on his birthday, release a balloon towards heaven and continue to stay strong for my family, myself and most importantly for the miracle that continues to grow inside of me that will be my fathers first grandchild and name sake August of this year! That was the one gift I wasn't able to give him while he was here on earth, the one i wanted to give him so very much but the one that i know he will protect forever!!! Happy Birthday Pa!!! I love you always and forever!
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Our Dads are so proud of us. You know, I don't think we're supposed to understand Gods reasonings or actions. Sometimes "Faith" is the hard part. Faith in his plan for us whatever it is. The saying that "everything happens for a reason" is something I truely believe in. It really doesn't make the grief process any better though. My son, my only child, leaves for college in 3 months, one of the things that give me peace about it is that my Dad will be his guardian, watching and protecting him. Your in my thoughts. Don't forget to take care of yourself, especially during the next few weeks. Hugs, Marge
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