Hello everyone and thanks for the kind words of advice. Today is going to be prety hard. It was 3 years ago today that we lost him. It's funny right before he died he had told me in his culture(muslim) that when you start looking back at your life it means you are going to die. Did he know? He had been recently talking to an old girlfriend he hadn't seen in 20 years. And at a million things he'd do as a kid. I took it as rambling. Or wise tells. I saw him everyday so I should have noticed something. With a brain tumor you'll show some kind of telling tales. We'd joke about his falling asleep eveytime he sat down. I found out later he almost burned the house down because he put something on the stove and fell asleep. I have kicked myself for being to self involved to notice his ailment. Will he ever know what it meant to me to have him stay by my side thru out my hospital stay. Will he ever know what it meant to me that we finally became close. I guess what I wonder the most is did he know how much I loved and respected him. So dad, I love you, miss you, and since you always had perfect teeth, everytime I go to the dentist I think of you. And lately? There are tons of visits. And one thing I wondered and it may be dumb. Do you see Mom, John, or even my twin sister. I like to joke that when it thunders it is just you and mom arguing again. I love you Pops
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