I have been a cutter for many years. I did not understand why I did cut at first..but after many years I do now...its just the way I release pain. What I hate is ppl who do not understand and who think I am tryin to get attention or think they no whats best..as if...until someone has walked in my shoes they can shut the f*** up!!!! I Have never cut to Kill...only to feel better. If you ask me its better than being an alcoholic and drinkin away my rage...but then I have no reason to judge that either..I am just saying..that is me..that is what I do...that is how I roll....god it just gets me so mad...that ppl think I am tryin to die...anyways had to get that off my chest...and I have not cut for almost 1 yr now..but the feeling is there daily...its a fight not to.. all Im tryin to say to is don't try to stop me...let me do it..and thats that...thats my feelings...just wanted to get that out there...also I cut because of 6 yrs of verbal and mental abuse with my ex..then breakin up with him...only to have him break into my home..rape me, beat me, and rob me..thats why...!!!! I have Fribromyalgia now..and let me tell u this is the worst disease I think man daily pain 24/7 never goes away...I hate it...its changed my life..damn...but I plan to fight it and get back to ME!!! PEACE J.