so most of u saw my post the other day about my father-in-law giving me the lecture of being responsable, well the one line he gave me about this isnt just effecting u it effects everyone around you...well my dad knows how to take that to a whole new level... he starts talking to me about how its not only me and he feels sorry that im sick but i need to do something about it and be proactive in taking charge of my illness... Kayla, it effects u and me and your mom, we get stressed out seeing u sick, the people you work with cuz you can only make it into work half a day what about next week are you going to come into work at all... it effects Donny and the time you spend with him and the activities you guys can do together... ok thanks dad you really know how to pull the tears out of me... make me feel responsable for you and mom constantly fighting cuz i stress u guys out... and i thought i was being the strongest i could be by forcing myself to get up and go in even if it was just for half a day... guess that wasnt good enough for him though.. and yea thanks i think i know that its effecting mine and donnys relationship, after all it is OUR relationship, not yours... and yea i have been talking to him and he is here for me more than ever right now he understands and doesnt push me to do stuff i cant or dont feel up to... but thanks next time you wanna remind me how much my life freakin sucks right now and how hard i make it on everyone that i love ill be here at work answering phones for you...thanks Dad i love you too... gees what a way to express that you care for me and want me to get better... it almost makes me feel like he doesnt want me to get better for me but he wants me to get better for him and everyone around me...ehhh, this week just isnt getting any better, seems like the only one that is understanding and there for me is Donny and he is the newest one to the situation and knows the least yet he is the most compassionate... ok well im done for now...i swear im usually not this emotional about this stuff just seems like everyone and there brother needs to tell me what i Dont need to here right now...
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