I am just over a year from my primary diagnosis with Crohn's and it has been the most difficult year of my life yet. With four hospitalizations, a slew of new drugs every 2-3 months and having to learn the entire insurance procedure, I feel honestly like nothing will ever be ok. I am a sophomore at a very intense university and missed two of my most important finals last term due to an emergency spinal tap. However, the most wonderful thing in my life this past year has been my family and my boyfriend. We started dating a week after I was diagnosed and he has seen me through every hospital visit. Lately though, he has seemed frusterated with me; making me feel like my disease is costing him his college experience as much as it has been costing me. He always tells me that he wants me to just be healthy but as hard as I try to explain, he just doesn't understand that that won't be for a long time and I am doing the best I can. I am sick again now with some sort of violent infection and will probably not be better for a while. I have begun to simply avoid him because of how upset I think I make him when I am around and cannot be my old bubbly, happy self. I miss how we used to be. Have other people suffered with this problem? Does Crohn's really have the right to strip me of something I loved so much?
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