Coronary Heart Disease Support Group
Coronary heart disease is the end result of the accumulation of plaques within the walls of the arteries. While the symptoms and signs of coronary heart disease are noticable in the advanced state of disease, most with coronary heart disease show no evidence of disease for decades as the disease progresses before the first onset of symptoms, often a "sudden" heart attack,...
I am just overwhelmed by a diagnosis of congestive heartfailure that I received on Sunday at the ER. My regular Doc verified the diagnosis. My question? How do you live with this diagnosis of such impact? I have had to call and ask for lorazapam becuase it is as if my mind has gone on hiatis for a while. As they say, "I can't wrap my mind around this". I have been aware of my limited mortality since I had auto immune hepatitis and was put on immuran, and I also have diabetes and fibromyalgia. I guess I thought that the bypass would fix the heart and I would go on living with my illnesses in a sort of civilized stand off. Now, I feel like a very defeated warrior.
I know speaking of our mortality is sort of a big no-no, because when I talk about my impending death, it makes you think of yours, but is there anyone who can answer my question?
I've been living one day at a time for years, now I will be finding even more joy in my days, but how do I get through the keyhole into acceptance that my far gone philosophy that life is what you make it day to day,
isn't supporting this awareness.
I know you don't know me from Adam, but if there is anyone who can offer a word for me to hold on to, I would appreciate it so much.
I know speaking of our mortality is sort of a big no-no, because when I talk about my impending death, it makes you think of yours, but is there anyone who can answer my question?
I've been living one day at a time for years, now I will be finding even more joy in my days, but how do I get through the keyhole into acceptance that my far gone philosophy that life is what you make it day to day,
isn't supporting this awareness.
I know you don't know me from Adam, but if there is anyone who can offer a word for me to hold on to, I would appreciate it so much.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
You know it was really odd sitting in a room full of people (heart disease self ed/help road to recovery class) and being the youngest one there . I was concerned about living long enough to see my children graduate in which they are very young , the youngest being 1 and oldest 7 .In the class I mentioned the heart and stroke foundation stats and they really don't sound good . Looking around the room The reality struck me that the mortality rate for everyone in that class won't be very high or more than a decade or two because alot are already over 60 , 70 and even 80 . Well if I see age 70 then I'll be very happy and by then advances in medicine and heart health will probably have grown considerably . My teen sweetheart was stabbed numerous times in the chest by her xhusband many years ago and she continues to live with a pacemaker ...another quite overweight woman in the road to recovery class has had a pacemaker for 17 years ...which tells me that survival and mortality isn't based on stats ...and for myself just knowing my reality is good enough. I don't have to worry about a big life altering surprise because thats already happened so I can put that behind me and carry on like nothing has ever happened . This of course is dependant on whether I'm having a bad day or not . Bad days are becoming less and less frequent .The feeling of being a defeated warrior is likely common as I know at times I can feel that too .I think I can only describe my own tolerance and tolerances by becoming bored of worrying about the future .If you have just the right amount of freedom from pain, psyhcological recovery takes care of itself . I don't know if any of that makes or made any sense but human nature, joy and happiness is largely based on moments and whether you are healthy or like any of us with heart disease you are going to have those moments regardless of health and it has little or nothing to do with what you make life .It is as much of a reality as ...'life is , what you make it'.That all sounded a little heavy and I probably don't know what I'm saying but I hope you remain pain free with enough room from it to have moments of peace and happiness . Take care of yourself .