My mom has end stage COPD. She is in ICU right now on a vent and nobody can tell me if she will be able to come off of it. This is the 9th time that this has happend in the past 3 years. I finally started to understand that she will never really get better. 4 years ago, she weighed 170 lbs, now she weighs 95. I know that everyone must die eventually, but I don't understand this. For 3 years, she has not been able to do anything, go anywhere, or enjoy anything. My mom is my best friend, my life, my angel, and right now she can't live without the help of a machine. I always hoped she'd get better, silly me, I guess the inevitable has arrived. I am hysterical,she looks at me with her big blue eyes, and I see fear,pain, and confusion. And the worst is that she can't cry out to me, she can't tell me what's going through her head. I wish I could take her place, it's not fair. If she can't come off the vent, when do they decide when to shut it off, and then what happens. I need help, I keep praying and hoping but my heart is ripped in half. I just thank God I found this site because I feel so alone and helpless. I'm going crazy....
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