I am married to my husband but just ended a relationship with my bestfriend that I fell in love with. I fell hard. She told me that she would be with me if I wasn't married. I finanlly got up enough courage to tell her that I wanted to be with her. In on breath she told me that she loved me, that she wanted the same things as me. In another breath she asked me, "how am I supposed to tell my family when I'm not 100% gay?" To the last breath that she told me that she doesn't want what I want, that she could never deal with society, and that she thinks that there is a guy that can treat her and make her feel like I do. OUCH! Not gonna lie about it, it hurts still. I haven't heard from her in about a month an a half. She has done everything possible to keep me out her life...even changed her cell phone number. I loved being with her. I loved every part of her. Was it b/c it was her? Am I gay? What the hell am I supposed to do with all of these questions that I have?
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