yeah i think i will hold off on david...my fiance...i love him and i know i do. but idk if its what i want. hes in the army adn will be back home soon. idk if i wanna deal with him leaving all the time being special forces and all that fun stuff. and when he was here, all he wanted to do is if we had alone time, any time for that matter, what to have sex. idk if i want a guy in the first place. all i think about is this girl...weve been best friends for about 5 years now. she knows i liek her and she likes me back. i think shes afraid to be with a girl. idk, from what i know of it tho shes never been with a girl at all. ive had girlfriends and am totally open about liking girls, even tho i know ppl hate to see me holding hands with mary all the time everywhere we go. or when we kiss in public. not a make out, just a kiss. idk...i dont care. fuck everyone else.
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