In my past i have fallen for girls that are unatainable. I have been in and out of love w a bestfriend for around 10 yrs. Obviously i have never told her. She knows that i am working on coming out and have had trouble with this for a while. When she mentions her boyfriend it seriously makes me wanna scream,cry and throw up. I have been really good lately by totally ignoring the sutuation and acting fine about it. It's not that i dont like him but the jelousy is driving me crazy. My b-day is coming up and she asked me when i wanna hang out.Of course sat isnt good for her so Friday was the best deal. So her boy-friend calls and has to go to Texas for the wk because of work w his dad. She wanted to c him b4 he leaves which is fine,i totally understand..So I stupidly said.."with an attitude" Why dont we just forget about it and do it nxt weekend? Like i said in the beginning. And she said maybe..it all depends when he's leaving.so i got frustrated becuase what am i supposed to do? Screw that..i do that way to much waiting around for people. It's hard because she doesnt know why i act the way i do but i cant help it! I think my prob is that i am always available and i easily get hurt. Anyone have any advise? I have tried to forget about her but it's hard when you hang all the time:(
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