So, after a good decade of struggling with my sexuality, I am finally comfortable and happy with the fact that I am a lesbian. I don't care if I was born that way or if I was made that way, but that's what I am.
For the past five years, I've been thinking I don't want to be in a relationship (with a man) and I don't want to get married (to a man) and I don't want to have children (with a man).
When I finally accepted the fact that I'm gay a few nights ago... Well, since then, all I can think about is being in a relationship with a woman, being married to a woman, having children with a woman.
I've had a screwed up life. Sexual abuse, bipolar disorder, all sorts of weird diseases (I once had rocky mountain spotted fever and a staff infection at the SAME TIME), and now, on top of it all, I am gay. It's really just epic hilarity at this point.
So I'm going to start living as a gay woman.

As for coming out, I'm going to come out to one more friend, and then no one else needs to know until I have someone important enough in my life to start introducing to my circle of friends and family. Until then, I will be perfectly content being closeted.