In college when I moved away from home and lived on my own I came out of the closet and was happy as a clown. I had a great job teaching autistic adults and two great women in my life. One of which I took for granted. The girl that I thought I loved just used me and moved away. The one who truely loved me I failed to realized of course until it was too late. I moved back to my home state because my mom said she would pay for my masters. When I first came back I dated the first girl that I met and it made my mom so uncomfortable. It didnt work out between us, not because of my mom but because I knew from the beginning that it wasnt meant to be. One day I met up with a guy friend from highschool. We drank a little too much and being so incredibly lonely I slept with him. It made my family so freaking happy. Our moms then became best friends and whats worse is our grandparents too! So now I am stuck in this fake fairytale hetersexual world and I hate it. Its not me! It just makes everyone so happy and since I live under her roof I feel like I am obligated to make her happy. I got a promotion at work and am saving up money to move out. I cant wait for that day so that I can be myself! I AM GAY. wow it feels good to say that. I cant wait for that day when I am truely happy again, on my own and out of the closet.
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