Breathe! Sex is not all that it's glamorized into being! I'm 21 and trust me I've had sex...and I honestly find self-stimulation to be much for satisfying...

As for your mom if you think she'd be fine with it then tell her! You need to build up a support structure before you can start coming out to everyone.

As for being bullied...just stand up for yourself. Always walk with a friend and if they start something then you have a witness that you didn't provoke them. Let them get themselves in trouble. I know that when I came out my school (although small and out in the sticks of Good old West Virginia) was very accepting of it. It was the exact opposite of what I thought it would be...lucky for me I guess...

Just promise me one thing! DO NOT GO OUT AND HAVE SEX WITH A RANDOM PERSON! STDs are real and more people have them than you think! I have a friend that thought that he'd be fine and he has AIDS now. TRUE STORY ok? Your first time needs to be with someone that you trust and have feelings for...Otherwise you are cheapening the experience for yourself. Hold off till you find a good guy and make it truly a nigh to remember.

I agree. Our society is obsessed with sex. I have no experince, but i've heard it's not as great unless you're in love with the person, which makes it more special.

Don't be desperate. When's the last time you hears someone say that being desperate was attractive? It's not. Just be confident and try to be content with who you are, and someone will find that attractive.

I am not about to encourage random sex, and 15 is pretty young, but really, I understand. Hormones are raging, emotions are high tide right now. I guess you could hold off on the sex stuff until you come to terms with how, when, where and to whom you're going to come out to. Get yourself situated, when you find a boyfriend and things start getting hot, then you can worry about sex. Until then, masturbation is great. I cancareless, you really think masturbating is better than sex?!?! Thats crazy talk my man. You've gotta just be saying that to make the boy feel better, because really truly sex with a human being is much much better than sex with a toy or hand. Just me.

Part of your want is due to the stage of puberty. Your body has been slammed with feelings it's never known before and as a result will this new 'desire'. To have sex with someone you have no feelings for will just have the same feeling as it does whe you are alone. Running around frantically to have sex with anything that moves would just be using them and that's not right. For some people they take this act as a sign of devotion and when they find they were just used so you could get off they will see you as a cruel person. so maybe have a little respect for others feelings as well and not just your own animalistic needs. Also doing this could attract unwanted attention of someone thinking you are so easy that they can force you into something you don't want to do and with your history of being a slut you will have no one there to back you up and stand by your side on that. They will end up saying" Whatever. You sleep with everyone you expect us to believe you were raped?" Many girls that behave in that same manner when they find themselves in that situation because of their actions are never really helped. After all they sleep with everyone that comes along how is that any different? Doing this will also up the stakes of you getting STDs. Not many will want to be a partner with someone who got that because they were careless and not because of by accident. It will also end upp being hard to get into a serious relationship as well because people will not trust you. They will think that you are paying attension to them so you can just get laid. So you might want to think about that. I know of what I speak. Most of my relationships ended in one to two weeks time because I wouldn't "put out". This was very hurtful to me. To know that someone I had fancyed seemed to feel the same towards me gave me hope of findinf someone to love. Then to have the crushing blow of them having really trying to use me as a toy. I cried every time. It made me miserable to where I almost gave up on it all together and not want to ever find someone to be with for life. So maybe you might want to show others some respect. Just breathe and find a way to keep yourself calm. You aren't going to die if you don't have sex this very minute. No I am not scolding you but just trying to shed some light on the possibilities your actions could cause.

Dante~

P.S.
Sorry for the long reply but there were many different possible subjects that could happen and I wanted to be good enough to make you aware of all the things that could happen.

Dante~

I think I'm going to understand what you're going through the most on this post. You see, I found out I was gay when I was 13, and am now 15 too.
The trouble is, I'm also desperate to come out and have a boyfriend. I know getting bullied by your classmates, because people at my school are really brutal to gays.
The difference is, I know that having sex at our age isn't good. Just think about it- having sex can be very good I presume, but reputation is at stake.
I know you're gagging for it, but just think about the long-term effects. Find a boyfriend, take it slow and you've got to at least wait until you're positive you've thought about it thoroughly before you have sex because you might wish you'd saved it.
At least your mum will be happy with you being gay- mine would probably kill me!