So, my school is only 2,000 kids, but the high school I came from was only 300...I only arrived yesterday for orientation and I was doing fine, but I'm beginning to think I will never make friends here...I was fine, nervous but fine, and then I talked to the one girl I know in this whole school and she is afraid she won't fit in...most of the kids are from the state, if not local.......I am smiling and saying hi, but its feeling so fake and other people seem to be fitting in fine...I know I'm isolating (i.e. here in my dorm room) but I'm just getting depressed really fast and if I don't snap out of it, i'll probably have no chance because at least now, people won't look at you funny if you talk to them...I don'y even know why I'm writing this...I just feel really inept right now and I'm trying to put off sleeping or worse...being dead to the world won't do me any good.....sorry for this rambling rant...I know what I ought to do- turn off the computer and walk around and find someone to talk to...i really, really hate myself atm................
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