Advocating for ourselves when recovering is difficult but we have to feel the fear /guilt shame which is not ours and do it anyway.
Today I called in sick to work, something I was pushed to do in my old job due to severe anxiety, lack of boundaries at work with other people and lack of self care a sense of self and overworking .
This week my routine went out the window 1- work was hectic there has been a lot of pressure which stressed me out because I’m learning how not to over do to stick to my boundaries - not feel others guilt.
2- working through emotional triggers / baggage in my relationships which are from Childhood .
3- I’ve been feeling angry as to not owning my own reality as I was never taught . My thoughts /feelings and just confused that’s why I have to journal to get to the bottom of it .
4- Poor eating routine eating unhealthy foods as not eating adequate food on time All related to codependent behaviours .
5 -living with sick , unhealthy people , who don’t want to or know how to get better is a challenge in itself -they ha e built a wall of denial and still believe mental health issues are purely genetic in our family - bipolar mum , brother who has schizophrenia both adult child’s another -brother who is not far off becoming mentally ill and my sister who has anxiety but is an adult child in denial running from her problems wanting a quick fix .
They fail to see the trauma , nsrcisstic abuse codependency are the cause of it . My mum has lived her whole life emotionally unavailable, with bipolar , she’s a pain killer addict who has really refused to get any proper help . A part of me does feel sorry for what she went through with a malignant narcissistic dad , but she’s chosen to live like this long after I’m not going to see her like a poor victim .
These codependent behaviours , thoughts and beliefs Learned in childhood are difficult to change , I do believe we need to be living our life in recovery and definitely need a support network to overcome this disease - which is what it is we only realise when we really can’t take anymore . That’s how powerful our childhood programming is but it does become easier !
*disclaimer: I posted this to another group, but I think it may be more suitable in this one*I cannot tell you how excited I am to find this site. It's hard to deal with difficult family members as it is, but it's especially hard when all your friends and other family members are either tired of hearing about it, or don't get it. So, long story short, my mother drives me nuts. She's extremely...
Does anyone read or want the ACA dailies?i wont put them on if no one is interested.So much of our stuff is from our upbringingand childhood. Many people dont have aclue how deep it runs and what havoc itplays on us still as adults.