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As in my partner the codependent?
Seriously, everyone's life would improve if they would take the healthy, non-crazy road.
And specific to my world, yes, but not to say that hard individual work still wouldn't need to be done. It wouldn't make life perfect but make some dailies less consuming.
And if I was in the midst of crazy answering this question I might have had a laundry list of how his changes would make my life better...
there has been periods of time in our four year relatioship that he really was tryign to stay clean and he was really different , when I checked up on him and time after time he would prove that he was telling the truth , or he agreed to drug tests and they were negative , and he acted nicer to me , and he avoided certain friends , I started to feel more relaxed , I felt myself slack off on worrying and wondering what he was up to . I started feeling more trusting as a result of his right actions.
So yes I do think my "codependent nature would fade if my addict cleaned up his act for real .
The problem is that he relapsed and eventually I couldn't even feel relaxed when he was behaving because I was always waiting for the next big episode where he used again and my life was in shambles , and limbo again , and my values would be challenged, and all the trust would be back to square one , and starting over rebuilding it . That has gotten disgusting and unlivable .
After this latest relapse , I just feel broken and like I just don't want to try anymore only to get nothing back .
Its always one step foreward and 10 steps back with him .
Did that make sense?
(I am goofy today...my fingers aren't moving as quickly as my brain and some of these posts aren't coming out as intended, and darn it I type bout' 75 words per min).