Okay so in order tounderstand this ? you have to know some history. My father was never around we saw him maybe once every 2 years for a week. When I went to live with himone summer he was drunk and I locked the door and he chsed me and threw me out of the house. He was always working when ever we visited and only until the end did he seem to care but then it was too late and I said I could not visit(last minute crying request) because I was to needed at my job. I have called to wish happy birthday and been put on hold long distance. He married a woman with 2 kids and said it was his second chance but what about me I would never get a second chance to have a father in my childhood!! Anyway the one thing he did that made me feel special and loved and that I mattered was to buy himself a 1976 corvette. That was the year I was born. He had it for years. I was suppose to get it when he died but he had to sell it when he got his 5th divirce (once a cheat always a cheat I learned from him) anyway He offerd it to me first and really wanted me to have it but I was not financially able even with the really cheap price he offered. He took his life 6 years ago. So now I have the money and I can afford it but my husband may be taking a pay cut to start a new job. But I can still afford it but it is an expensive object i don't need and I haven't figured out why I really want it. When I get it will it make me happy or am I looking for a connection to my father through a car and once I get it I won't want it I just want it right now. You know sort of like the new game or dress or shoes. Has anyone else experienced this?
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