I have been separated from my husband about three months. We had continued to talk daily and I started getting my hopes up that maybe he would go to a rehab and try to fix our family. From going to my meetings, reading books and reading this website, I see that I had begun that fantasy thinking of what I wanted so bad but never really had with him. I asked him to stop calling me three weeks ago and this time he listened. He only calls daily to talk to our daughter so of course my mind starts wandering about what he is doing and how he can be over it so soon. When he was begging me, it was very hard for me and I insisted he leave me alone. I thought it would be easier when he stopped calling so I could move on but it is hard too. I feel as if either way, I will continue to live this misery. I love my daughter so much and want to do whats best for her. I hate that he has chosen drugs over us and I hate that I have made this huge decision to leave him after a 15 year relationship and somehow he still controls me.
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