I`ve lived with my childrens stepfather going on 20yrs. They know he is a terrible alcoholic but he would give them the moon and then some at the expense of our house bills. My checks always covered everything while his kept him drunk and my kids very happy. They tell me I knew he was an alcoholic and made the choice 5 yrs ago to marry him. That was a mistake I admit but they encouraged it and wanted it..They say I can`t live without him and I say I would be " living " without him. I`ve recently been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder that has painful results with little to no remedy..The more he drinks the worse I get. The rare days he`s sober the better I feel,temporarily, till he forgets why he did`nt drink the one day.(I`d pack and leave for a night)He`s had a stroke and recently a heart attack and that has only increased the degree of drunkeness. (Blackouts,passing out anywhere,etc.) When do I throw in the towel for my own health and well being. I`m wiped out, I think I`ve had enough!!!
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