I am at a point where I want so much and my girlfriend wants to take it one day at a time. I know now she wants me in her life and no one else! But after we see each other, I am thinking about when I can see her nest. She doesnt. If I ask then about the nest time, she doesnt want to answer. She is much busier than me, so she has a lot to keep her mind off the relationship. She also has fears that the past bad stuff will come up again and she doesnt want to get real close again, and get hurt. But I want to get close, fall in love again, and take each past issue and lay it all out on the table! She is also getting homework from her therapist which is helping her figure out why she is so hot and cold to me right now. How do you hold back emotions and desires and miss out on so much? I cant plan much because she fels pressure if I ask about an upcoming time together, or an event-now it is Christmas and if we are going to spend the day together at each others house? I know it isnt that she doesnt want to-she does, it is just all about if we SHOULD? We love each other, dont want anyone else, yet she isnt sure if she wants to get closer. I will suffer thru a little hurt(I have been) if I can learn about what we can and cant have in our relationship. Does this make any sense? How do I keep from saying the wrong thing or feel like she is able to turn the love and want, on and off? She is much stronger then me in those ways.
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