At this point in time in my life I am the loneliest that I've ever been. I work full time and go to school full time... The only people that call me anymore is my mother and my brother. I still have friends but they don't call anymore because they know that I am so busy that I can't or won't go do anything. I was on and off again with my ex and after 3 years off emotional turmoil and another recent separation between us, I finally put an end to things... AGAIN... But after everything that I've been through, the depression, the lonelyness, the feelings of being unwanted and unloved, I somehow find myself feeling better. Little by little I find myself catching a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe it's becasue I'm almost done with school, or fet-up with giving and not recieveing, or just overall F#@%ing tired of being sad, lonely, and depressed. All I know is that somedays are better than others and sometimes I fall back into that hole but it doesn't seem as deep anymore and it's getting easier and easier to get back up. Only time will tell what my future holds, but every now and then I have a new sense of optimism, and for those brief moments... I feel like there's hope for me yet and for everyone else out there that's been where I was and doing their best to make it out of that dark side of their life.
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