Today was tough. I verified where she went last night and I have finally had with the lies. Our 18 year old daughter packed up and left after she called me every name in the book and blamed me for everything wrong in her life. So I did something I never thought I would ever have to do but I couldn't take it anymore. Thank God I have Alanon and my freinds on this board. I remind myself all I have learned about addict behavior to know I can be sad but I can't undo this. She is not willing to do something as easy as telling me the truth. She has disrupted our family long enough. She acted just like she did when she tested positive. I so wanted to believe she was getting better I want to feel at peace with this decision and whatever follows but in the meantime I will cry and then try to refocus and realize my tears aren't helping a dang thing. This sucks. The serentity prayer:Have the courage to change the things I can. I just did but I don't feel strong I feel sick.
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