Well, here I am, sitting at the computer, 6 days after my cardiac catherization. He was with me at the hospital.I got the feeling all he wanted to do was watch tv or go home. I stayed overnight. when I got home he was here. It didn't help his girlfriend called 8;30 in the morning and I hung up on her, knowing shed just want to know where he was. i hung up on her. so when i got home, i got on the computer, played music, and he ignored me. knowing hes on drugs, i left him alone. what could i do? i needed someone around. he looked at me and said,"I guess you ENJOYED all that attention you got at the hospial, didn't you?" Like i wanted a heart condition! i muttered a few things about he had a better life in general, like an excuse why i was the way i was. he had a real wicked looke in hids eyes when he said this. I said just leave me alone. when i woke up, he was gone. i got depressed and went to bed for a couple of days. then in the middle of the night, i started freezing, my heart started beating rapidly, MY CHEST HURT, and i got hot. i felt naseaus and threw up. the pain subsided. I have stayed in bed like im suppose to anyway-rest. it was one of the scariest things that have happed to me. I had my oxygen on and afrai to take it off. he has been back again but i locked the door.he has a friend who likes to make fun of me and ifeel terrible, so vlnerable. he takes all my friends away from me. why am i so sick to allow these people to hurt me? i have to call the doctor or go to hospital today. i dont feel good at all. no friends. anything. whats his is his, whsts mine is his.the last time i was at the hospital i came home and he came to my door, knocked loudly twicw,when i opened it, he was running down the street.i asked him why he did this . he said he didnt know o had just come out of he hospital. nice, right? my life is like a nightmare since i met him and prior too, but at least i had friends who werent taken away from me because of his charisma and looks and money. i feel all alone and sad. thank you.
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