My husband is a drug addict and has been in recovery on and off for the past 15 years. I dated him for 11 years and have been married for four. He is always moody and I always have that feeling of walking on egg shells and making sure he is happy all the time. It really doesn't work because he still will find something to complain about. My friends think he has sucked the life out of me and that I have become a different person. I have tried for years to help him, have tried to be supportive. We have a four year old daughter and it is hard for me to decide if its better to be with him for her sake or be without him. He doesn't spend much time with us but the little he does makes her so happy. He is a very compulsive person who enjoys gambling and then becomes depressed and uses. He goes on binges for either 24 or 48 hours even. I feel like I failed as a wife to some extent even though I have given it my all. I dont want to fail as a mother. I dont know how I wound up like this. I feel like I should have been able to fix this but logically I know that there must be something wrong with me to feel as if I have that much control. Thats why I searched for a website like this. I am lost and I want to find myself again.
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