I've only been on here a week. And I've really been making an effort. But my hubby just called me screaming at me because the modem isn't working and I just switched it out with the cable company yesterday. I asked him why he was screaming at me and he just hung up. And it really put a damper on how I feel about myself. Not because I can fix the modem, but rather because it makes me think about how I wound up in this mess to begin with. Part of me wants to cry and part of me wants to put a bullet in his head. Just when I think he is actually trying to control the things he says to me BOOM I am blindsided yet again. I wish I were stronger.
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