I'm really sad today. I've cried so much I'm standing on empty at the moment. All over the fact that I realize it's time for me to break away from the love of my life because I can not continue to bring them harm anymore because of my codependency. It's the only real loving thing to do , but it just hurts... so freakin bad. I don't want to live without the company, the voice, that smile, the smell, the laugh. But i'm told I am poison, and I know it to be true. And who wants to live with anyone like that? So I have to force myself to put distance between the one and only thing I ache to cling to. I really hate me right now.
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