I think we all hate being alone. It was always one of my biggest fears. I am working on that and I think I am on the right track.
You are in the right place to start learning.
Being with emotionally unavailable men will trash your self esteem. I have the same problem (except with women of course!!) I am beginning to realize that I set my own self worth, and my self esteem is part of that. You are your center of happiness, you just don't know it yet.

I used to think I would die if I didn't have some man. 5 years without one..and I am still alive! I determined that those feelings I had were just withdrawl. and like quitting smoking or whatever..the withdrawl does go away! Now, I almost enjoy being alone. Someday, when I know I will pick someone good for me and when I can be good for someone, I might think about a relationship. but not right now. Of couse, I do have a son that gives me a drama fix these days. So maybe that is why it is easier. I hope not though.

Maybe this is truely fatalistic...but sometimes its a hell of a lot worse to be with someone than it is to be alone. Alone allows you to build confidence and you can prove to yourself that you can take care of you. If I had never spent time alone, I would have never been able to know myself enough to make good decisions for me. It made me a stronger person both emotionally and physically.

I think thats a part of my biggest problem as well! i feel something, im not sure but i wud rather be with someone cus then i feel loved, even if its bad for me and my self esteem. Breaking away from destructive people is hard!!