Hi my name is Lee Ann, I'm 34 with 2 kids. My husbands name is Sean. About 4 yrs ago he had knee surgery (orthascopic). The Dr. put him on Hydrcodone. He got to where he was taking more and more(up to 20-30 a day) because he got an buzz from them. When they were no longer giving him a buzz he started adding somas. Then in May of last year we found out that his Grandmother has cancer and they had only gave her 3 months (she is still living). He went to a different doctor that gave him nerve pills. The nerve pills were way to strong. He would take one and not remember anything so he would take more. He couldnt walk, talk or anything. i tried to explain to him the way he was acting but he wont listen. He even tore up his moms car with a hammer and screw driver because he couldn't get it to crank ( he was using our car key). He promised me he wouldn't take anymore. Then he went to our regular medical doctor and told her he was having a hard time sleeping so she gave him sleeping pills (ristoril).Which makes him out of his mind too. I have told him either it was the pills or me and the kids. So he tells me every month that he wont get anymore. I have even packed my clothes and called my brother to come get me. In Oct. my foster dad died and I was getting ready to go out of town when my husband decides to get f-up. So I had called Grandma to tell her I was going to the funeral and I wasnt coming back and she wanted me to promise her I wouldnt leave him till she died. So I did. Then in Dec. my mom died unexpectantly. Since then he has been crying saying he cant handle watching his grandma waste away. So he needs the nerve pills and sleeping pills. He makes me feel like my mom was nothing. He says I'm turning the kids against him. I tell him no they see the way he acts. He gets zoned out and falls a sleep and when he wakes up he is either eating or falling all over the house and most of the time he is naked and my 9yr. old daughter walks in and sees him like that. I have tried hiding all the pills but he searches the house till he finds them. I told him that our 13yr old. has to act like hes the daddy. He does all the cooking and cleaning for me. So that I can work. When my husband is off the pills he is the best person in the world. He doesn't take the pills everyday. When he gets them he has all of them taken within a week. He will get the nerve pills one week and get the sleeping pills a couple weeks later. So for about 2 weeks every month my life is a living hell.It seems like he would rather have the pills than us. Because I have begged him to go to rehab ( I even call 911 to send him and they wouldn't take him) and his excuse is he cant till he gets his knee replaced. I tell him the his knee has nothing to do with the nerve pills and sleeping pills. He says I promise I wont get them again then the next month he gets them again. I am sick and tired of it. I am scared he will o.d. on them and die. I have tried telling him this (his brother died in 02 from a pain patch over dose). Then he says we are going to have to watch our son because he will probaly end up on drugs because of peer pressure. I tell him no because he sees how he acts.
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