Hi im 26 and new to this....... I come from a family of severe alcoholics/addicts, i've been dealing with co-dependancy from the womb. My mother has 3 daughters me being the most realistic and giving (most co) of the three, im the middle daughter with an older sister 29 and little sister 22. When my older sister was born shes was born in prison and raised by family memebers, when i was born my mom was in treatment and had a few months under her belt... we bonded like the mother/child bond that is so important in life.... My younger sister was born addicted to herion and almost lost her life several times due to complications.... so here we are 20 something years later and my mom is still abusing Suboxen which is a sythetic morphine on top of Ativan an anti-anxiety med, xanex, vicoden, valium, pretty much whatever she can get her hands on. I am so co-dependant i actually can feel when she is not in her right mind or depressed and i vicariously live with her pain and depression. She married a well to do self made millionare, who is hard working and caring but severly co also. He cosigns all her bullsh*t, as all of us do, she almost lost her life 3 years ago when she was taking so much dope that she had an impacted bowel that burst, causing her to have 5 surgerys in 7 days and in critical care... I lost my mind during those 3 months, she swore she would never take anything after that. She has been in treatment millions of times throughout her life and stayed clean for 15 years at one point but these past 6 years have been nothing but lies manipulations and deciet, she has ruined numerous vacations (something we never got to experiance growing up) and numerous holidays due to the fact shes so loaded she starts fights with family members, gets arrested for stealing, or is just agitated by the lack of drugs in her system. She has been in rehab 3 times within the past 3 years and even went to Mexico for a detox that they swear by. Nothing has worked, she built a bussiness from scratch and has been very successful in life, but its all going away and so is my family. Do i just sit around and wait for the day that she dies, in such an anxious depressed state? I even called the show intervention on A&E to see if they could help. I cannot or let me refrase that do not know how to detach and live my own life away from her misory, she has me trapped in hell and i can't become successful living like this what to do?
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