before i started al anon and recovery from codependency, whenever i read something like i have posted below, i thought it was a load of horse manure. it didn't make any sense to me. it was "weakness" or "letting someone get one up on me".
i now realize that humility is not weakness. i now realize that when i can be honest and let my walls down and speak from my heart with compassion and respect, it comes back to me.

every single relationship in my life has gotten better. family, friends, bf. all of them.

the only thing that has changed is ME. and my attitude.
we are the center of OUR universe in that whatever weather we create, we get. if we forecast sun, we get it back.

today i am so grateful for al anon. so grateful for my life and the love i have.

my glass is more than half-full. for that i am grateful too.

this is the first time i can remember actually being excited and in the spirit for christmas.

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Respect
When I learn to respect myself, other people will respect me. How can I develop respect for myself? By keeping my mind positive and encouraging myself to grow and change for the better. Demanding respect because of my position or background is simply arrogance. On the other hand, listening with humility and valuing other people's advise naturally earns me respect. I get back exactly what I give out.
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never ever give up on getting better. hold onto faith in yourself and the process. your thoughts are not crazy. nor are you. it's just the world that is out of whack.

blessings.