So I was told by someone I love that I was codependent and love addicted. i read up and . well yeah, I could see it. But that person fit the bill too. Yet I don't see her here. Is it easier to point than fix yourself.Now how is it that I'm really unhealthy and she sees that,but only that she herself is a little unhealthy? Shit I was pretty happy with my life not being in a relationship before we got together. Then i went into it with passion. Had a wonderful holidays with her the happiest i've been since i can remember. The rub is that i and her both were getting divorces. Mine was final,a relieve,hers was lingering, not filed, different pain. or different point on pain time line. then she finds DS and friends and relationships and then I go from the loving relation to a burden who calls too much,she doesn't want me to join DS cause it's her clique. I finally get online and it all comes to a head. This love , this relationship was not quite as honest as I thought.,slowly I was cut off and my phone calls were then called creepy and stalker-like I was crushed. This Whole site is set up for Stalkers...Looking at peoples journals and hugs ,lets say it takes some getting used to. So my close conversations were replaced by anothers. And I was labeled love addicted, codependent. But I have found great help and people to talk to here in the clique I was not supposed to join. I"M unhealthy. And pissed and think of her everyday and will be her friend forever. I am being honest with myself and anyone who asks. And I guess I was codependently loyal in the face of all the signs of being dumped. OK I've vented and I've joined this support group for all to see. I think I will join a few more so when the creepy profile stalkers troll around I'll look terribly unavailable. I love me today. My life is good and I'm a fing god person. With problems and issues from my past to deal with like everyone else. It feels good to get this off my chest........................A little hurt,not devastated, not "totally incapacitated", hurt. sorry I can't talk to the person Who I helped and helped me. ....There i'm pushing the button now.................here goes.......................I'm doing it ................for real...............................sh t....
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