Does anyone find themself becoming just irritable for no apparent reason at your partner, and only at your partner? Holy cow, since my H came home last night from work after a very stressful week, I feel smothered or something. I knew he was going to have a hard week and made a concious effort to encourage, support, and motivate him through the week. Which by the way is hard for me to do when he is so disconnected due to stress which in turn I tend to push away too! (the ole, I'll hurt you before you hurt me thing which I am aware of and try to pay attention to closely!) Anyway, any feedback, am I not seeing something here? I tend to start looking inward at my part trying to find my own weaknesses in this regard, and this seems to be a recurring dance...suggestions? I probably look at my fears first--fear of intimacy, closeness, being loved, abandonment etc. and am baffled as I am not feeling any of these, I don't think!
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