I've been searching for anything to help me let go. I recently realized my problems and went to therapy to try and sort it all out. My therapist ended those sessions saying that there was nothing more she could do for me...it was all up to me to maintain the progress I had made. I did that for a period of time and then it all fell apart. I sat down to talk to my boyfriend about feeling what I saw as him becoming a bit distant from me. what I was met with was the harsh truth. He told me that he loves me but I am so clingy. it seems that any time he isn't paying me direct attention I get upset or I find a way to recapture it. I couldn't deny any of it. I feel awkward now and honestly like a jerk. He didn't say it to be mean...he actually said it in a very nice and almost apologetic way. I've been selfishly twisting my surroundings. I didn't fix my codependency--I changed the type of codepent that I was. I went from victimized servant codependent to victimized selfish codependent. can anyone shed some light on how I might be able to find a middle ground? after all the therapy I do know that I love this man. I agonized for hours trying to make sure that I had these feelings instead of just glomming onto someone for the sake of being needed. I love him...and because I really think it may be the first time I truly know that, I don't want this to cause some stupid little problem and ruin everything. I need to detatch here but I think I need help to do it.
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