I've been reading about codependency for a month now. At first I thought that I really fit the description except for the manipulative part. I don't manipulate I let others maniputlate me. Then I started thinking. you see I was just in a very sick and abusive relationship and one thing after another it was suddenly gone for good. You see we would break up and I would move everything I owned and 3 or 4 days later move back. But this time it was different. It was for good. So addictive personality that I am I went a month w/ out talking to him feeling like a drug addict w/ her drugs. I emailed him knowing he had no way to read it but then found a way for him to get his password. I maniputated the situation. Every email I write is designed to keep that fix. I manipulate just like an addict.