I have this friend named Larissa. The problem is that we used to be togather. One thing lead to another and we ended up drifting apart. Well then I ended up getting ahold of her and we started talking agian. I got her enrolled in my school. She just wants to be friends but the problem is that I still love her. I want to be with her. But in all honesty I dont want to be with her for the rest of my life. I think that my problem is that I am terrified of being alone. I dont want to lose her because I dont want to be alone for the rest of my life. I want someone to love and take care of me. I want someone who will treat me right, that I can rely on. I am so afraid of everything. All of my life I have been told how to thing, what to do, how to do it. I dont know how to do anything on my own. I am so scared of everything because I have never been allowed to experience anything on my own. Now I am terrified. I dont know how to be independent. I dont even know who I am anymore. I am just so scared. I dont want to be alone. I am terrified. I dont know what to do. It is just one thing after another. My bank account is overdrawn $116 and I just got my bill for one of my student loans. It is only $33 but I thought I had $88 in my account and I am overdrawn. I dont have much gas and I dont have the money for more and I am scared. I dont know what to do. My mom wants me to work for her, but I hate working for her. I absolutely hate it. I dont know what to do. Apparently I will have to work for my mom, but my mom also wants me to quit my job working on Mondays and Fridays so that I have to drive less because I have to drive 50 miles to get to and from work and school. I dont know what to do. I work at the school so i have to be there for class three days a week. But I work for a total of fifteen hours on the days that she doesnt want me to work and that is over $80. I am so lost I am so depressed and I am begining to be suicidal. What do I do? How do I pull out?
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