or so I think that I am at least. Actually, I know that I'm codependent although I don't want to face up to another flaw. Ahem. I've discovered that I can't be alone. I always thought that it was quite the opposite. I'm a recovering alcoholic and addict which obviously gives me the predisposition to be addicted to a number of things in my life. I've been feeling stressed lately. I started talking again to a guy a couple of days ago that I dated briefly because I started to feel lonely. He is toxic. He is an active addict and he's not going to stop using anytime soon. I'm in a very vunerable place currently. I have a hard time saying no to him. My regular pattern of behavior is to get the hell out of a relationship as fast as possible. I wasn't able to do that with him. I've passed up a couple of meaningful relationships for this guy. Why can't I leave him? I've passed up a possible promising relationship because I started to focus in on my ex. I can't figure out why I'm so drawn to him even though I know that he's using me.
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