I am feeling so bad today. So rejected. Breaking this codependency thing is sooooooo hard. I didn't think it would be THIS hard. I was trying really hard not to call my ex and I had almost mad it through the day yesterday until nightime and I called him. I don't even know why I try anymore--it seems as though I always end up back at square one. I hate backsliding---it makes me feel weaker than I already am. What do you guys do when you mke progress and then you all of a sudden mess up? Is this normal? Because I honestly thought my first try at non-codependent life I would get it.....it would just take a while to totally get it down. I can't even manage to stop contacting the asshole in my life. He doesn't "need" me anymore and it breaks my heart.
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