So today was a really bad day my boyfriend and i fought ALL day. We fight all the time. When things are good i love him alot but im finding that things are more often worse then they are good lately. I cant even tell you how the fight started but it blew up fast and i had a complete break down on the phone with him making myself look like an idiot. I was screaming and crying and have honestly never felt that "crazy" before. I broke up with him like i usually do but i went back because i cant anxiety and find myself caving EVERY time. During my breakdown he didnt try and calm me down instead he just mocked me....that one stung. I know that us being together isnt good for me but i have the biggest fear of being alone and i dont now how to get over that. I dont know how to get past the anxiety and sadness. I have waisted 4 years of my life because im afraid of change. How do i get over that hill?
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