I have a competitive personality. Sometimes I am not even aware that I am competing with others. I get jealous easily if my husband talks to another woman even if it is about work. I know that I have abused alcohol to cope with my feelings of lonliness, isolation and anxiety. I know I that I have a problem anneed a lot of attention to feel validated. I made a mistake this week that I am ashamed of. I quit drinking (not the mistake) but found myself needing something to replace it. I ended chatting and chatting with a man on the internet which gave me tons of attention. I met him for coffee and clearly stated that I didn't want a physical relationship and that I didn't want a relationship that I would be ashamed of. I realized later on in the visit that the man was only there to try and seduce me. I feel terrible because I feel like I was unfaithful to my husband because I didn't tell him I was going to meet this man. My husband was in Europe, and I didn't want to tell him what happened over the phone, but I did tell him I felt I made a mistake. I know that I made a poor decision, but I am afraid that I don't know how to deal with my need for attention and approval in the world.
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