I fell into the co dependency trap again this past tuesday. My friend emailed me saying she was about to cry that she was having problems with her job situation. i talked to her all day. i encouraged her. i told her she was a good person. that she would do a good job. my heart ached for her. i felt real good about our friendship after this. tuesday night i ran into some problems of my own. went into work on wed, depressed, crying, anxious. my friend started sending IMs to chat. i finally told her i wasnt feeling well .she said she was sorry. i told her i had the blues. she never came back. now i am very disappointed in her. i feel i do so much for her she could have least listened to me. i ended up leaving work b/c i was so upset. today she IM and never asked how i was feeling. am i expecting too much?? or did i go overboard trying to help her. she told me she loved me today. i said to myself "yeh right"
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