So all of a sudden, I start having these feelings of guilt. I don't know why. I mean, I know some days are good and some days are bad. But these feelings have been stuck in my head to the point where I am obsessing about them and I don't know how to let go. All of a sudden, I feel like my marriage is all my fault. Even though my STBX was the alcoholic and the one with a problem, now I feel like I had a bigger problem and I didn't do anything about it. If I had taken care of myself long ago, would we still be together? But then, do I want to spend the rest of my life with a man who has a problem and won't take care of himself? Before I left, I told myself that I had done everything (and more) to try to make my marriage work. And when it was time to leave, I didn't feel like I was the one who failed the marriage. But now I feel like I am the one who failed the marriage because I had a problem and didn't deal with it. So why am I even worrying about it now? It wasn't something I could "fix" in the first place. I've been pretty good about feeling the feelings and moving on, but for some reason this one has lingered. Any help that you all could provide would be greatly appreciated.
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