I am sooo frustrated. I beleive that I have come to the conclusion yesterday that my marriage is over and that it has been for some time. My husband does not like that I will not tolerat the attentions that he is getting from a sweet young thing who is 40 years his junior. I see now that my husband has too many demons for me to help him to fix them. He never tells me that he loves me. He seems to have no concern for how I am feeling or doing. Except he did tell me to stay home and rest my leg yesterday, gee what a turn around, and then the kicker (no pun intended) he didn't want me showing up at the event because she was going to be there. Sounds like an affair I know but trully I don't believe there is one, and I know that sounds naieve on my part but that is what I believe. He has agreed to many things in the management of this situation and has not lived up to a single one of them. He views my perception of the situation as sick and absolutely and untruth. And here I sit carefully watching for ANY indication that the man has any feeling for me. I mean down to watching what he eats and trying to draw from that that there is feeling in his heart for me. Here I am making a decision that I no longer have a marriage and yet I know that if I got two words from him telling me that I mattered at all in his life I would stay for another 6 months. A person should not have to live this way. I thought I was so careful to choose a man whom I could share with, realate too and have fun with. What went wrong?
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