i have done alot of reading of postings over the last few months. in alot of the postings it is so easy to see typical behavior. people who know me dont see as codependent. for me its not being a doormat to everyone around me and sending alot of time doing things for others. i just find it hard to leave relationships that are not meeting my needs. its not just because of the other person and not wanting to hurt them, its because i am scared to be alone and afraid that if i end a relationship i will get sad and think " why did i not just be honest and work on things". this is also my problem because i dont want to work on things because i want to avoid conflict, so i wait till i am just beside myself and it all comes out with anger and cursing and demeaning. then i feel relief and feel better for few days, then the cycle starts again. anyone else feel like this or have any comments.
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