I was raised by a narcissist. I am the grown adult daughter with a family of my own of an alcoholic and narcissist. I do think she loved, but my entire life I was confused. I never could put the pieces together and now we've been estranged for the past three years off and on. Now we are back at full estrangement and live only three blocks from each other. My ill father lives with her. I've only discovered after this recent last estrangement that she truly is a narcissist. My whole life has been confusing and I lived in her denial - a painful confusing way to live. I'm now understanding it only since the estrangement. The estrangement has been bitter sweet as it really gave me time to be around other people and see how different it can be. My question - can a narcissist mother ever truly love their child? Was there ever any love there or only when I was serving her? Now that I don't cater to her she hates me and thoroughly talks down to me. She's also paranoid that I will share her drunk moments with others. She's still drinking but justified that with her image and living well. Still doesn't stop the mean behavior and crappy moods she gets from the hangovers. I don't want to be a victim of hers anymore, but I do feel so much loss in this reality and feel so much pain out of the love I still feel for my mother and for these latter years. I want to know if a narcissist can truly love her daughter. Is it possible?
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