You know codependency is what i have been doing forever. i couldn't let go of this man because i love him and i would justify putting myself out for him be saying " oh it's ok i love him" but laltey i have been feeling different and though if this was it then wouldn't he be willing to put him self out for me and if thats the case then wouldn't neither of us have to sacrafice anything?? I guess it was a realzation that i need to pay more attention to me and what makes me happy and now i feel so much better almost relieved that i had the strenght to do the impossiable..push him away when i want him soo much!! i want to love him but i know that has to be a two way street!! anywhoo just felt like an important step in my work and wanted to share it with all of those who think.. I can never do that i love him.. you can its sad it hurts but you can.
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