For the past several years I have dated men that are VERY bad for me and I make a personal challenge to make it work with the person even though I know it is so unrealistic. I am so self destructive and I am now 31 and I feel like I am never going to get my life together and I am scared I cant sleep at night I have panic attacks. People always say you are so pretty and sweet and funny but I hate myself. Tonight my boyfriend broke up with me and threw beer at me and I begged him to stay and I hate myself for having such low self esteem. What can I do? I have taken so much mental/physical/ and emotional abuse in my life and I think I want to be married one day and have children but now I feel time is running out and I have wasted so much time on men who are bad for me and if my boyfriend called I would probably take him back even though he was so mean bc I feel like I alwys need a man in my life. To man having a man who is no good for me is better than being alone. I have the rest of my life together I bought a house on my own I have a Masters Degree in Social Work (ironically I can help everyone but myself) I really need help bf it is too late! I would appreciate any help.
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