I have been married for 14 years and am currently going through a divorce. Last year when I was in a womens and childrens shelter due to an incident that happened to me and my kids I found a pamphlet about co-dependency. It sounded a lot like me. The situation is this. My stbx would be completely apathetic to me. Not pay me any attention or care if I was even in the room. He would play online computer games for hours even if I would beg him to get off the games. then he would get mad at something and I would not even know why or what happened to make him mad. He would find the most bizare things to get mad at. we would have a huge blow up where inside i would panick and be terrified, yet on the outside i would stand up for myself during these horrible fights. After the massive blow ups he would calm down and usualy do something overly nice for me making me feel calm like everything is going to be ok again. I would tell myself that he cant help being like this as he was abused as a kid and he doesnt mean to hurt me. this continued for years til he ended up getting hurt, I ended up getting hurt and the police became involved. We have been seperted for a year now, close to divorcing and i am panicking over losing him. I dont want to live with him, yet I am terrified to be without him.
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