i had been with my partner and 6 children for 7 years it was up and down the good times were excellent but bad times were very sad we both drank and did drugs she had an affair in february and i left in march was still in contact basically at her beck and call looked after kids at weekends at her house and on odd occasion slept together.after 5 months she had been dumped by her new fella and was on phone to me i went running to her and stayed for 3 months in those 3 months i was treated like a doormat a babysitter a house cleaner was called pathetic and weak and nastier names and she would stay out most of the week but again there was good times when a apology was made shed say i love you and i would forget the pain and carry on as if nothing had happened i eventually found out after 3 months that she had been leading the life of a single women and had slept with others.i still forgive her as i must if i love her accept anything she does i guess its been like this for years but now i am clean of drink and drugs i notice the wrong things she does but still i couldnt walk away that was till last friday when she gave me no choice but to leave it was that or be beaten up which by her was not a problem but it was by other men and as i have gone through so much to control my anger i had to walk away without anything no money no clothes nothing at all not even a kiss goodbye of my babies all this and yet i feel she is my life i love her more than my life as without her there is no point in living but even that i fail as before i tried numerous times to overdose but failed each time which only convinced me more that we was meant to be and to put up with any pain she throws my way but surely this is not right love should make yourself and others happy shouldnt it life seemed so much easier when i was an addict but now my addiction seems to be that of my ex please am i in love or a codependant or as she calls me pathetic and sad?? please be truthful as i am losing my mind all i can think about is is she ok is the kids ok where are they how can i gain there love back and the worst thing is what did i do wrong was it quitting the drugs PLEASE ANY ADVICE OR HELP WOULD BE EXTREMELY GRATEFUL AND APPRECIATED THANKS FOR TAKING TIME IN READING THIS IF IT MAKES SENSE PEACE AND LOVE TO YOU ALL MAY GOD BLESS YOU X
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