so, i'll admit. this last time I was wrong. I went back thinking that the "game" would work. or something like that. realizing that i lean on him way to much than i should. realizing that a "happy family" doesn't necessarily mean together. i've put my daughters spirit in danger. although only 3 months old making her unable to grow and thrive in the ways that she should. noticing a change in her "attitude" made me notice the change in mine. not being the person that i once was and loved. i want to love myself again. for me, not the person i'm with. i can't love others until i love myself. right? i need to be able to take care of myself before i can take care of my daughter my best way possible. i no longer need to depend on others to make me happy. i may need the support and strength of my family, but i will no longer lose myself to someone who says the love me. if there supposed to grace themselves into my life they will make themselves seem worthwhile. i'm finally learning that i need to love myself. and that its okay to be alone. it doesn't mean your lonely. :)
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