I have been newly diagnosed with codependency and also I am bipolar, and PSTD. I am trying to start to get all this under control. I drove my husband 1000's of miles away because of the stupid things I have done. I love him so much and need him back with us. He understands some of the things to a point. I can say I would have a hard time dealing in his shoes. Instead of talking to him about things, I talk to others and don't tell him. I have NEVER cheated on him nor would I, but I have talked to another guy and not told him about it. I spontaneously decided to abort the baby we were going to have and didn't want to tell him, but did. I am just so lost and confused and now without him I feel just worse. I don't know if I can make it. I am trying to regain his trust so he comes back, I just want help in becoming a better person and the wife I know I can be. I have the Codependency No More book and am also going to sign up for a group and am working on getting the bipolar meds again, which I was unable to take when pregnant. All suggestions and support here would be welcome, I am at my wits end.
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